Blues, I'm feeling them.

Okay, I won't lie to you. I haven't been 'feeling' Lolita-ish at all for the past month, and most of this month as well. It's personal issues, most of which are things we all have heard of...

Body image issues, low self-esteem, lack of courage, and just general "omg I can't do this, so I won't" problems.

I knew I wouldn't be able to do this, so I tried anyway. I don't think this really counts as trying... I am so behind, there must have been a lot of things to talk about... And I owe October posts too, though I didn't do anything of the sort for Halloween. Because of money issues.

I cannot believe it. I am forced to quit before I begin. The only problem I have is gathering money... I really need a job, but I cannot afford to take time away from school, seeing as how this school I go to is very... Nevermind. I can catch up with all my work eventually. I just never seem to want to do it all, and get distracted, as more and more work is slapped onto our schedules. (Oh wait, I don't have a schedule...)

I think I should just changed the whole concept of this blog, or delete it. I'm sorry, I haven't tried hard enough. But I just cannot seem to get the money or time to do the things that I wanted to. So now... maybe I'll just post at least twice a week here. About anything Lolita related, and get my opinions out, and hopefully strike a nice conversation about opinions and the like. Just to make this blog a little less dusty.

I hope to get better, and a little less like a big coward soon.